Sayonara

How to be the Halim that I want to be?... It's getting stressful.. projects to manage, schools, wushu and morning PT... damn NS is going to take away my 2 years of life. I know what life is, don't mention it but why must this happen to me so early (15-16yrs old)? It seems like I've 'killed' myself..(ie. the Halim that I want to be..)