True enough. I was wondering why when in primary school, a friend of mine told me to take him as a brother, partly due to his mother advise as well. He said since, you have no siblings, you can take me as a bro. I was still young and I thought, I don't need siblings.
But now I know why I need one. Looking back, I am always alone at home. Everyone's out to work, no siblings and so I stayed at home alone almost every day. Not knowing how to socialize and too used to being alone. I understand the lonely emotions when people are alone. The 'emoism' - so called.
In secondary school, I chase for friends. But after some time, I isolate myself again. It feels weird to see everyone eating with friends and spending time with each other while I sat on a bench observing my surroundings alone. I thought that it was a hobby to observe people, but now I guess I just don't know how to mingle or more like we have different interest.
Actually, that is when it hurts. You will begin to wonder why no one come to you, talk to you or even pay any attention to you. You feel as though you're invisible. Everyone is with someone, while you are alone with yourself. Go home, feel vexed. No siblings to talk to or share each others day. Seriously, I don't know what people with siblings are doing.
Holiday is even worse. Nobody is at home. You're alone. Got scolded for not doing house chores. Already that I was emo being alone at home, I still got scolding for not doing house chores. Who can I turn to? (not all people have this trouble)
That is why, whenever I see a friend who is alone, I try to be with them. I know how loner feels. Call them weird and leave them alone, that's what most people would do when they meet 'weird' people.
The only friend I had was stray cats. That's why I use to 'meow!' on MSN. :)
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