Well...a few days ago, i thought of my unfulfiled dreams/interests. I was thinking...maybe if I hv a child, i could pass down my talent to them. Train them from young to be flexible, strong and stable. Then pass down my foundations of martial arts to them. Train them strong that they do not have to face the same problem as me now.

I feel so old come to think of it. Haha...not time for me to think abt all these...I dont even hv a gf yet.


Alamak...lazy to continue...goodnite

Well.
Fri
Wushu, i was damn lazy. Do things anyhow.

Sat
Work..quite fun. Bought a pair of shoes. I was a bit interested in shoes nowadays. haha..looking good is one of it..but most importantly, a good shoes for fighting :D
Back home quite early...but decided to do some resistance exercise cos' getting weaker. Any of u who are interested to go gym, do ask me to tag along.

Sun
Morning work, good.
Ninja-do -> ALright!! Joel is back! The return of Joel with his four eyes and unshaved moutache. :D He is a nice guy..and there's a lot I can learn from him, not only in Ninjado but also in terms of personality.
The 2nd greatest news is that...THEY'RE GONNA BUILD A DOJO for martial art classes. :D
Then ninja-do will hv a place to train.

I just wanna see where am I now..

Singing has always been something that I have long to achieve. To be more correct, i wanna learn the correct way to sing. I have tried to maximise my interest in that field but failed. Working part-time, I thought I would be able to get myself to take up vocal course, but it is insufficient. When I got into RP, I was so excited about joining replug or rhaspody. I tried rhaspody...but failed audition.

It's not something to be sad of, but rather something to be improved on. It could be I am not born with the 'sing' voice. But I am still not satisfied. I think I should give another try next year. Just to encourage myself, I may not make it but at least I have the courage.

This courage. I was told by my wushu intructor that I am the next person to succeed in doing the cartwheel without hand because of my courage. Just yesterday, he told me to jump. Sometimes I wonder why am I doing. I mean, if i were to see another person who do the same thing as me, I would say they're crazy. But when I am doing that thing...I just feel great. What I did was trying to do the cartwheel...and fell, injuring myself. It seems that I did not change. I don't even know whether what I was doing was right or wrong...that is being daring.

Besides that, I do have this interest of drawing manga. Serious talking, I think that the unofficial IG I am in now would die off. I don't think the chairman can ensure me of being a manga artist.

In a way, I am proud of myself for living with some of my dreams...one of which is knowing martial arts. And to be more of myself, I did not go for strong martial arts or a martial art of my own race, Silat. I am only learning the ones that symbolise me.

What I learn from this interest field is that, no one is better than anyone. It is just seen that way because everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses. So if I still fail the audition next year, it doesn't matter...I have other strengths.

Halim

Week of bad luck.

Content:
How it started?
What happened?
In school
In work place..I seek for revenge
Wushu
Ninja-do = relief stress

It all started long time ago when I was young...about 9 Nov 2007.
I had this illustrator workshop in school. I did not install the program. So I learn by just looking at it.
Then I was told to hand in on Monday, but no email was sent telling us where to upload. I have not even installed la. I was also trying to gather my VB mates to do the program. It was difficult to contact them during the holiday.
That was also the day I receive the email saying that there was an extension of submission. So..I was lucky. Lucky right? Ah pui.
The same day I can't really do much cos' I had wushu after school. THen tuesday, the VB project is just starting to roll. Writing codes, doing problem statements and illustrator.

Somemore, it was a science lesson. I did try to focus le. I think i did more than what I done for most lesson. And this faci was like, gave me C and said i looked a bit lost. Sometimes I wonder whether I should switched on my serious mode. I mean, it's the mode I hate most...i get stress so easily. This KFC(Kanina F**k C.b) faci needs to reward me better la. Sial la...irritating sia. Furthermore my cognitive UT...I tot i did well and wrote a lot...but then, I got Elephant. Like WTF. Thanks ar...felt so under-rewarded. Stress + sad.

Wednesday, submitted the illustration late.
For VB, I set dateline to finish on Thursday cos' Fri and Sat, I will be bz...but procrastinated and somebody did not really cooperate.
Friday, after wushu...at night, still writing codes. Saturday after work, also writing codes and it was completed...with 2 problems which we forgot to correct...but we submitted anyway. I designed the layout using illustrator. :D
Oh...u may be asking why I go wushu when VB is at a more priority case. I tell u...I got wushu performance on 18 Nov and need more training and along the way relief stress. Somemore it was like last minute for me cos' I was actually working on Sunday. To make it worse, I am one of the person in charge. So I practice wushu even after completing VB.

Working was also meant to relief some stress...but it turned out to be the other way round. Things goes so fun until this idiot came over to take over my cashier job. Talking like supervisor, she kept telling people what to do. Then she straight away count my cash before I get to count it myself. She told be shortage of $9. ok..like what the FUCK? I was trying to relief stress...I tried to just get high, but in a way doing the right thing...I say, someone must be a CSR. Then this idiotic ugly heart shouted, "Can u SHUT up!?"
For goodness sake, can say nicely anot?
I ain't scared of her. How I wish it was in a secondary school...then I can beat and kick her ass. One fact about me, I DON'T CARE whether ur a guy or girl, if u show no RESPECT and it reaches my limit...prepare to get ur ass kicked. Yes, I am not a gentleman...get that in ur head. I m only nice to those who deserve my good treatment, regardless guy or girl.
So what I did to relief stress? Just keep quiet and show my true discipline...I volunteered to be the CSR, the most boring job, and stand at the door step. The other coleagues was surprised tat I was being a CSR, when I am not really supposed to be. Behaving like my previous NCC self, I show no sign of warmth. I had the tendency to kick the wall, the chair and EVEN that idiot. I could get her leg break again...but I hv brains, unlike her..shout EVEN when there are customers. One advice for her: Better watch her mouth and look who's talking, now she's done it...so just watch out. I am seeking for revenge.
If my anger fades off before the next round, consider herself lucky man.
Then this manager was like ask me, not busy..wanna go home? Go la.
I was like ok, fine. And went off.

So done with that. Today was the performance, needs to be there by 8am. So left the house abt 7++. Practice and perform...I think I did badly. I feel so out of shape. I need to be more built. I need to get in shape. Ended at 11+, got changed..and cabot. Go home, did the most rare thing i ever do...that is sleep. After that, woke up at around 3:30...bathe again and go for ninja-do. Had sparring with same opponent and last wk. I tried to relief stress la...so went a bit violent..but STILL, i m not so strong. Still tired from performance. I pretended to hv a knee injured when my opponent kicked my knee. Well...it was to play safe and not let him kick it more. I already hv injured knees. Haha..but eventually, he hurt his own feet that kicked my knee. I kicked his thigh and other part of his leg. I was a bit aggressive but at the same time, I am having this barrier of, "he is a friend" and "No kicking of faces".

Time to build more muscles.

Eventually, is my holiday fruitful?
Well...I earn abt 2 DA pts.
Then had wushu, learn a lil guitar, earn more money and new knowledges.
Oh ya...and finally today, a bokken! :D It's been long since I want it! :P

BUT, there's still something i m not satisfied. That is the VB challenge thing...cos' I cant contact some ppl.
The other one is not being able to study for science.
Hais..i lost my enthusiasm for VB already. Pls do not ask me anything.

Today, morning...ate chicken rice my mom bought for me last nite. It taste weird...but seriously, I hv no idea whether it can still be eaten or not. Like i say, all i know is eat eat eat. So yea, i ate it.
Then play PC game...cant remember wad i played. haha. As i was playing, i felt a lil headache. I told my mom that. In less than an hour, it got even worse. So i stop the game and rest..lying down.
The next thing was this feeling of wanna puke. Had a very uneasy stomach. Went to toilet and vomitted. Damn...all the rice came out. My mom advise me not to go for training...she said my forehead is getting warm; sign of fever.
But I just could not. I told myself, I can still do it...I cant give in to my weakness.
So in the end i did. Feel a little bit pain in the tummy.

There, I sparred with Ryan. I did the same moves for the whole spar. haha. Cos' before that he told me tat we should go easy. So I did inner rising kick and yoyatsu. I kicked his back..I scared it's his spinal cord le...so i ask RaeX, his sister, about his condition. As for me, to avoid paisehness and also punishment, I pretended I was not hurt. He kick below the belt(by accident). Haha...Then another one was the last move before the match ended, that is my knee. So yea...it hurts, still i can tahan ar. Genta say I look like a 14yrs-old kid. =.=" Damn.

Went home, thirsty, so bought 1 litre of apple aloe vera. Drank it the whole journey home. Then in the mirror, I saw my giant tummy bloated. haha.

Today work.
Some period bored, some good, some bad...
Morning, worked w/ this colleage...very fun. I bully only. haha...poor her.
Afternoon quite bz w/ bar cos' I HATE doin icecream.
Night, I was being so useless...I didnt take most of the order. I told this cina manager ar...she say why must wait? Haiyoo...then if they dont wanna order, then i must as well do other stuffs right? From there, i hardly take orders. Then got this customer...I took wrong order. Guess what? They want thin, i give pan. They want calamari, i give roasted chicken. Serious ar...i feel so paiseh, like walao...then got this colleage in the kitchen who went, "WHAT!?! HALIM KEYED IN WRONG?!"
I was like..err...dammit. I did repeat order and except for the calamari, i believe i did all fine. The calamari was due to wrong button. =.="

Ok..to justify myself..this was wad happen. I believe that there was a communication breakdown. I mean, the customer like keep stuttering. And wad is wrong with his role is that he did not pay attention and also do not really care. He can even make me laugh. See..he said he want salad with calamari, then his wife ask him...calamari is squid rite? Then he said, err...ya, er..i dunno. haha. It is like i dun care as long it's edible.

I dun care if i made anyone disappointed. I dun give a damn seriously. If u tink being a senior = no-mistake, sorry ar...tat is never true. Doesnt mean ur older, ur always right.

Serious ar...some ppl just need to be more respectful. Stop talking as tho ur perfect. Reflect on urself. Instead of criticising the 'mistaker', what would YOU do if ur in the same situation as him? Even if u hv a better solution, do not shoot others...just relax and try to deliver ur thoughts to them nicely..in a way that they dont feel offended but rather thankful.

On 8th of Nov...HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!
:D morning morning go work. Manager ask me whether I am going to quit or not. He wants to promote me but if i m not goin to quit soon, why would he promote me...
I was like err....I dunno. I told him that i would quit when the new staffs got better. He gave me a week to decide.

I am blessed with an sms not long ago. I learn a lot from her, a new friend.

Today, I m blessed with another new friend when i went for the Illustrator workshop. I do not hv the program installed in my com, so i asked her to send it to me tru thumbdrive. I lend it to another guy...but he was too quiet n didnt interact much with me. haha. On the run, this fafa oso come...very early sia she. Haha..come late but leave so fast. Bastard. The new friend was still having problems. haha. Went to eat with that new friend...cos' i really got nothing to do la. Wanna waste some time.

Like my nick...I can be serious if I want.

As i was working nowadays, I find myself being more easy on the new staffs. And it makes me more happier. Previously, I always lock myself with the thoughts that 'I must impress the manager', 'show the senior that I hv a strength' and 'the juniors must learn to be disciplined'. Of course, there's more...just that i couldnt remember. So what I did was 'never say die'. No matter how busy, I still beat the senior in terms of physical weariness.

Now, although I still topped discipline n respect, I still decided not to hurt anyone feelings. Seriously, when I first step into the battlefield, the seniors were all looking down on me...making me do all the work, in their terms is to teach me, but to me...they're just bastards. So when there's new recruits after me...I tend to be very fierce to them. I get very angry when they become lazy and slack. But the different is that I do not let them do all the things...I will show them how to do first...then the next ting is we do together. If I were to let them do all the things...then I am a bastard myself.

Let's just cut short. I begin to dislike some of the ppl there for having no respect tat I decided to relax myself. Like they say, follow the norms. My pay oso become like the norms. haha. So I m goin to be nice to new ppl. It seems tat it's better and i m happier. haha. Happiness>money. friendship>money.

My right knee is like I dunno how to describe liao. I can feel the twinge of pain at the joint every time I walk or even straighten my knee. I dunno wad to do la...go doctor, they oways gimme pain killer n ask me to rest. Alamak...i think today's entry really lame...cos' it's so late night liao....sleepy...brain working no so well..