MJ

MJ passed away..~
Is it true? ...I am still in doubt. Or perhaps, trying to accept it.

I've been his fans for years and have always take him as my role model. People believe the media when they say MJ abused child and stuffs. They call him wacko and stuffs. They always try to frame MJ.

However, when he's gone, everyone praise him and say good things about him. It's when he's gone, then these people who call him 'bad' begin to wake up and see who MJ really is.

This is why I dun like to hate people. Everyone deserves to be praised and be known for their positive side. But most humans lamely like to say bad things about others. They see the bad sides and forget about the good sides...until.. they lost that person.

Anyway, Michael Jackson have taught me a lot, though indirectly. I am like who I am now partly due to his songs, his voice, his videos, etc. He is a role model, my greatest inspirer.

Now that he's moonwalking to heaven, I feel insecured. Something is missing. Something is not right. I am talking about the world. The world is changing especially when he's gone. But I hope the world will change for the better.

I still feel like he can still be saved. I could not feel that he is living anymore.
I can't feel his soul. Is he really gone? Or will he come back? (I know it's a silly thought, don't mention it)

==============My 2 Cents================
It's lame to be gentlemanly just because the society say man should be gentleman. Then what about the women? Women should be women? Slut? Bitch? Tomboy? Whatever.
It's not that I am against the idea man should be gentleman. I am against the perception of the women who feels that man should be gentleman. Women, ask yourself, do you deserve gentle treatments? I see no logic why men should be gentle when the women is cursing and saying bad things about the men. I only see them taking advantage of the gentlemen. Conclusion: I don't consider myself gentle, I am nice to everyone. I think that's more important.

The Negative EMoIsm again..

>__<"

As usual, not enough sleep will make me more sensitive and emo. So prepare to kena shoot.

FYP, is not so stressful but team members make me stress.
Wushu, is tiring but fun..
4 Days Modules, also...

Hey you! Don't you realize it? Many ppl are avoiding and running away from you. But I am here to make your day better. Yet, you still annoy and irritate me. What's with you? You want people to like you, but you always leave others behind. You don't see the value of others. You only want you and only you to succeed. No wonder you deserve no friends. I know what's your respond is going to be. It's going to be a childish one...
..something like..."Ahh, dunno la. I don't care about what ppl say la"

Eh hello!? You think cool ar? It's lame and childish ok.

FYP, thanks all. You ppl hv taught me smth. Smth really good. Something that really wanna make me kick faces and especially that small girl. Here:
"Hey! You are just an empty vessel that makes the most noise!" - Halim (name not mention due to potential crime. It's not that I'm scared, it's just that I am not stupid to take the risk)

You're an empty vessel because you talk so much during the last meeting.. in Chinese somemore. It's damn irritating. And the rest of you are making me feel like gundu. AND hey YOU the one starts with M. You talk so much and did little. That's why you're an empty vessel.

Angry ar? Come arr. Beat me, hate me, you can never kill me.

I gave you a taste of my finger flicking and you already scold me right. That is just a little of what I can do. I am not a gentleman, sorry if you think I wont hit a girl. I am gentle to only who deserves it. You are one who don't deserve it.
Just so you know, that finger flicking is nothing compared to what I've done b4. So consider yourself lucky man.

And stop playing that Facebook game during meeting. You always think what we were doing are all wrong. But hey, take a look at the man in the mirror. Go tell him to change his way. Don't try to play with my words (ie. man, and your a 'woman'), it's lame and childish if you do tat.

"Seriously i'm getting sick of fyp lor.Maybe i should retain a semester to complete my fyp?I'm sick of fyp fyp fyp !! >."- quote from your blog (on May)

Hello?! You did nothing yet ok? (at least on May)

Look, you got me mad during the phototaking session. You stand at the piano and blabla. I am not good at handling camera, that is why I always try not to be the one taking shots. Yet I took a lot and you took so little and said that it is sufficient. Ok, MAYBE it was sufficient but it is better to have more shots. Now, we might need to borrow the camera to retake again.

At least, you did some html thing which I am not so sure abt. Remember this is an animation project. Don't dream on not animating. I am not perfect either, I KNOW...DON'T MENTION IT.

You like to play with 'he/she is lame', 'he/she is immature', 'he/she is childish'. So in this post, I am just tell you that you're the one of them(who are immature, childish, lame).

Look, you have potential. I know you're good at photography and you do have some creativity there somewhere in you (i dunno where la). One of my principles is that there is no point shooting others because they will lamely shoot you back. So sorry, if you are angry. I know you are those who will try to get revenge. I know, don't mention it. If you are reading up till here, take this apology from me. I'm sorry for offending you (if u feel offended). If it hurts so much, forget abt this post because the next time I meet you, I will show a smiley face.

Even though I shoot and say all these things, I never hate you or anyone. In fact, I hardly have any grudge..I can't even remember having one. I am just too tired. So just try to undertand me.

EDITED: I forgot something. CS4 SUCKS!

WUSHU, you guys are all nice. :) Finally, smth good to say. Juniors are nice, batch are okok. Seniors are as friendly. Thank you.

I have always wanted to spend more time on wushu and martial arts. My time is short... I still have things to do...

I drew this myself to represent the path that I am taking. Reason for not being in my so call crowd is because I have something in mind and other factors includes financial problems and my situations. I guess I have let people think that I am very playful, childish and obviously lame. But if only they see me in the past and if they were in my shoes, then I think they will know who I really am. I am better at socializing if I am lame than when I am serious, quiet and cool (as in calm).

Once again... I have something in mind. I have a goal. I have something to prove, I have something to do.. That's why I do what I do. Or else, I would be in my crowd.