The HINT to my preoccupied time

Hi..

Been doing all the crapz today. I am actually looking for help.. but I can tell that no one will or want to help me with it. I am judging from the attitude of the people I know, and concluded that.

There's one person that I thought can help, but like most people, she'll think it is a waste of time. I am not sure if it is just me who feels that it will help me in the future or is it true that it is a waste of time. I am doing it for the future..

I am thinking of creating a new game site. Anyone want to suggest a name for the site?
However, I have only 1 domain license. :(

Today, I've been doing a lot of technical stuffs : compiling 6ps, forum postings, reading ebooks, creating a PAD file, etc.

I have been separated from others for so long. I wish I have time to mingle around. In fact, I do have the time but I just have some unfinished business...

Anyway, wushu has been good for me. Able to catch up quite fast but not physically fit like the others. I am still catching up... after weeks+months of no show.

Wushu members are getting better too. :)

I am feeling quite down actually...because the truth is I think i sux at relationship. I can improve it but it all goes back to the unfinished business...

I am not like other guys... they are so much nicer, funny, good-looking, fun and all. I am just someone who is sentimental but quite strict, lame, ignorant-to-what-is-fun, busy, etc..

I feel so stupid la, but i need help with this unfinished business...which like i have said before, a waste of time to others and most probably they don't wanna do it.

Hi, I've created 2 scripts. Recently, it is an BH email tool. It tooks me 10 mins to recall what was the previous one... lol. IMScript.

I got ideas but too lazy to start the official site for the script. Anyway, I am a bit tired now. I have been eating quite a lot during the weekends cos' there's so many food and I was so stress because it is so difficult to make people happy. =.=""

Then today, I finally gotta enjoy my Wednesday. Thought of redeeming the cheque I earn from clickbank but couldn't find my bank book. So I decided to create the script and then exercise. It's been such a long time since I lift the dumbbells and play with the abs machine. After doing it, I thought I look quite good. lol.

So I go eat again. =.="" Now fat again. Aiyooo.
Need to solve problems... problems are disappearing and soon happiness will be restore.
Need to warn about the october prediction. Let's try not to create unnecessary violent.

Rushing life

The FYP team problem is kinda solved.

Yesterday, I spent the whole day in School when I am supposed to have a relaxed day. But oh well, at least I am able to help a bit and make others life slightly better.

Body aching by the time I reached home, still aching this morning.

I thought I was early. I thought that class starts at 9.45am but I forget that it starts at 9.15am! nOO!

Still trying to be happy in class. Smile, disturb and being naughty. Truth is, I am not happy la. Everything for me is a rush. I want to start earning fast. This life of mine is going to end soon..
I wish it is still 2007, still got more time to live, have fun and relax. Those days, I still have energy for wushu and trainings. No injuries, able to move fast and all...

I am tired really... Tomorrow is another morning training.. Boring. And then wushu.. after weeks/months of skipping. I am not sure why am I still there when I have no idea how else I can learn new things. Communication problems and stuffs. But if I don't go, i feel like I don't belong to any group of interests.

It's bad enough that I was being kicked out from Ninjado, and not being able to sing or dance. Those were the talents that I really wanted... If I am out of wushu, then I am totally wasted. I just hope the wushu members could understand (which i doubt so)

Really....

I am not sad just angry because my manager still did not take me seriously when I say I want to quit.

Another thing, I can't stop thinking of FYP team. I formed a team on php but was told that DIDM cannot take PHP project and should take Multimedia domain. Therefore, my team has to be re-formed. Now I got 1 member, and I receive an invitation to join a team... I don't want to leave my team member behind... it's just against my conscience. I mean I do not want others to do that to me, so I do not want to do it on others.

If we were to split, I wanna make sure she have a team. I don't know why I am thinking this way, maybe it's because I'm too stressed and under dilemma?

I don't mind doing video production or multimedia, but I do not have video skills. I did not take the module. So I have to rely on others for that part of the skill. This adds on to my worry. Will I ever find another team mate who is good at that? Or shall I find her a team and tell her to split?

Another thing is that, my other friend is also in the same situation of no team. But I am not sure if I should take him.. I don't mind IF we can find another good mate who is good at filming. That is the problem.

I didnt sleep well last night. Still thinking of what course of action to take. To make it worse, my team mate is working and not online, making it hard to communicate. Problems..

2 Ways of solving it:

1. Find 1 person who is good at video skills (preferably a guy). THen I can ask the other friend of mine to join me so we have 4 members. The problem is where can I find a person with good video skill? It is hard to find since we're not in school
2. Split. I join the group I am invited to and find my team mate a team as well. The unsolved problem is that friend of mine who dont have a team... how can I help him?

Still in doubt. Or if I were to use the second solution, I can actually help him find another team... but...