Ok..

I just realized that my last post is a total blowout of why I am so stress out all these while. To make matters worse, I got some crappy ppl around me who are making me feel even more crappy. I am lost in terms of generation.

Anyway, today I did totally crappy stuffs. I play CS a lot. I do some workout at home as well. I even sing and make a lot of noise. These are the kind of things I've always wanted to do. But due to my stress, school and fyp, i have no choice but to give it up.

If you realize smth, my blog is where u see my anger. I am trying hard not to do it in real life. So please, this blog does not physically hurt anyone - appreciate that.

Nothing is more stressful than this

Even up till now, I don't find RP a nightmare or anything. It is not stressful.

FYP? Not really stressful either. It's over by the way. Honestly, I didnt do my best for both sem. Sorry teams. I have something that is more stressful for me.

What I wanted was to be able to learn guitar, vocal, make more friends, hangout, make my own videos and go University. But i realize that I do not have a dad who can get me all these. I don't want my mom to do so much for me. I have to be independent and so what I am trying to do is have passive income. No one was there to help, even if there was, it was a girl who is so money-minded and that really disgust me. FUCK. I am not like others who have 2 great parents. I have 1 great parent. I don't have siblings. That make it even worse. I wonder what would happen to my parent if i were to go NS. FUCK U NS. My parent needs me more than you do, you fucker.

On the other hand, I want to go NS but NOT in PES A. FUCK U NS. Some people try to make me think or shoot me back saying, "Other guys also want to defend their mother what". HEY! FUCK U TOO! I KNOW THAT. BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF I'M GONE? THE ONLY CHILD MY PARENT HAS IS ME! FUCK YOU, YOU HAVE SIBLINGS AND OF COURSE IF YOU'RE GONE, YOUR PARENTS HAS OTHER CHILD. FUCK U! Stop trying to wake me up, you are just a little piece of talk-crapper to me, get it? Stop talking to me about, "Look at the future, do you want to have a bad life? If you can start earning now why not?". HEY FUCK U, i am way ahead of you, fucker. I have started learning online marketing at age of 16. Fuck u! I have been reading self-improvement books ever since secondary school.

Stop THINKING all I think is about enjoying myself. You are fucking ignorant. I am quiet, i let you have it your crap because if I were to make a sound, I will fight you I will turn violent because I am not a linguist like you! So appreciate my patience.

Night Entertainment

At 1:30am, a lizard fell into my dustbin. Out of boredom and for entertainment purposes, I decided to take a tooth pick from the cabinet. Treating the stick like a ninja needle, I threw it at the lizard. It detached its tail and escaped. It somehow motivates me to throw more tooth pick. So guess what I did? I took more and throw at the banana near the sink.. (see below)

I think this is fun. Gonna learn how to throw tooth pick more accurately. My guess for tomorrow will be my mom nagging at me for wasting her tooth pick. Opps... =x

New Layout

I was kind of bored that I decided to create a new layout. Besides I want to personalize my blog. I want to express my real want. By looking at my own blog template, I feel happy. lol. I don't know why but well, firstly it is cartoonish. It is simple and plain. Neat and very original.

And I want more people to feel what I feel and want. So I submitted this layout to blogskins.com.

http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=316482&action=Preview

Of course, I did not have my header banner there. lol. Mind replace with other things. Anyway, hope you all like it too.