Relax...

Today went to wushu...tired due to work..but aiya, I dont wanna waste my life at home.
In wushu, the male coach was training us. I am getting more flexible. :D WeeEEeee...
But my jumping remain the same. At least I learn the right way to jump. I still need to practice my sweep kicks. My speed was not there. Maybe I should be faster and spontaneous in my movements. Coach say I am very forgetful....alamak...sorry la, I old liao..

Haha...linking to that, he taught us some taichi. :D Wow!! It's FUN! Really, no kidding! It makes me relaxxxxx... :D

After that, went to register for a workshop...hope can get in..=.="

Then go workplace...rest there and go home. :D

It turn to be the unexpected..

The first thing that came to my mind when I woke up was "damn it...another day of boredom".

As usual, I went to work boringly with me in my jungle of thoughts...and was told that I am going to be the cashier. Getting used to all the nonsense. However, :D, my cheeky side started to dominate my dull side when I see students! :D lol...and I mean chios and cuties :3

lol. I know it's a bad habit to be cheeky with them but as long as it brighten up my day to serve customers, what harm does it do? HAha. I just appreciate their present because they're usually nice. That's why i am happy. My colleague was oso one of the factors that contribute to my spirit.

So I was also crapping just now.

Been thinking of finding a 'side job' like flyer distributor or smth like dat. Thinking of finding it for my third wk of holiday. I still owe my bank savings $400. =.="
I want a better paid job and the time to be flexible...=.=" Dunno how...

Hais...tomorrow wushu. My legs are still a lil bit tired from the 3 days standings. BUt I think I'll still be able to be at my best performance....i hope.

Let me for once...

I have had enough.

Let me just voice out some shits.

Firstly, I am sick of being an 'ab-norms' - being too different from others that lead me to loneliness.
Secondly, I ain't scared of YOU! So dont you get in my way.
Lastly, if you ever want something, you'd better show me that you deserve it!
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Yesterday work, Today work, tomorrow work. So I don't think I have much to say except for the boring days. Work...it was darn fucking boring.

Ruining my life

This morning...slept like pig the father. Late for wushu...abt 4mins? Along the way, I bought some snack...so call breakfast. My plan for the day is to submit my photoshop masterpiece to the sch, catch up wushu skills that i missed on Fri, get my haircut and have fun at home.

So yea...wushu i got tired very easily. My stamina sucks when comes to running. Only 2 rounds I get tired liao. =.=" Can't imagine how I am going to survive in NS. Then practice changquan. Wahh..missed lots of new things. Even for staff!

After wushu, went to outside W2 building to use the power supply there for my laptop. Took a look at my masterpiece and made a little changes to it. Then sms-ed Carolyn to know where her activity is located. Coincidentally, she was at W2 building too. So i do my stuffs. Just as i finish doin my stuffs, it was 2pm. It's also the end of Carol stuffs, I sms-ed her so maybe can walk to MRT station together.

She went to clementi too. Just accompany her around cos' i dont wanna end my day so fast. Then I went to had my haircut. It's just for the sake of my job. I dont know how to answer the barber when she ask how u want it to be cut...0__0". Totally clueless about hairsyles. She prompt me so much...=.=" sorry miss. She's nice.

Then walk around the night market. See caps and shirts. Sianz, too ex. Went home and help mom fix the curtain and ate like pig. Had some fun and now typing this.

If I can't be useful to myself, I should make myself useful to others.

I feel like quiting life...

You know what, blog? I am a bit sad actually. I dont feel good living this way. I am just emo, i think. The image that always form in my mind is myself walking alone to my destination. I feel so dull. How long will this psychological hoax going to stuck in my head? Or is it really true?..i am alone.

I can feel myself fading every second. The feeling of being outcasted by the society makes me feel frustrated. I am just running towards my goal...feeling sad, frustrated and lonely along the way. Seriously, what would make me feel better is to be at the top of a building seeing the beautiful and colourful lights of the city. I don't mind being alone like that..but of course with my weapons, pen, paper and lappy. Besides, hardly anyone likes being at the rooftop right? (*A friend just told me: You are crazy.) So at least I have somewhere to go to...and a reason why I am always alone.

Back to work, my manager told me to do something about my hair. Hais..I do not know how to style it. And whenever I had my haircut, i feel damn irritated...I will look like a kid...and uglier than an ugly duckling. Tues - Thurs...full shift I chiongz. Why? To get good pay for the coming sept. And it is going to be a bit risky for me...cos' there's lots of new faces. Which means I will have to be a cashier. Tedious!! :(

Ninja-do, I am more serious in being ninja-like. But I can't help using feelings to trigger my attack. I mean, I will let my opponent make me angry before I can actually have the urge to beat them. I guess feelings is the strongest power. In real combat, you're just fighting to defend.
In relate to this, I have been chopping and punching the walls of my workplace whenever it's not busy. Got some blisters. I remembers the first time I tried to train my hand was in primary school...punched till bled. Interested in ninja ever since a child...haiss. I was so bloody stupid and really wasted my life back then. Damn it!

I feel that I am being useless to myself, therefore I wanna try to be useful to others. I still cant elaborate or understand that line that i just wrote. I wonder what I mean...

The reborn of using photoshop

Today went for photoshop workshop. :D LOL...so fun. Well...I am just there to learn the basic la. :D
I went for E-card workshop in secondary sch...same, use photoshop. Gosh! I forgot what was taught. HAHA...
I was also taught to play with words by Ivan from Sgedulab forum. :D I just need to learn more. It's part of my course anyway. :D

So today...whole day play with photoshop...and that's it! :D HAHA
Therefore, I will post a survey...on Relationship. :D
There's an encoded name


1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty??
- Nakedddd!! WOO!! :P

2) Are you happy with that? ~
- With what? NakEd? NahHhh ~

3) Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Semi-broken if u ask me. HAHA!

4) Do you believe that there are
certain circumstances where cheating is
ok?
- YES!! HAHAHA!

6) Have you ever talked about marriage
with another person?
- Yes.

7) Do you want children?
- Hmm..beEn thinKing abT that~

8) How Many?
- pIaNGz! None of ur buSi-ness

9.) Would you consider an
adoption?
- nah...not coOl

10) If someone liked you right now,
would you want them to tell you?
- Of course. Just voice iT out! :D

11) Do you want someone you can't have?
- LOL. If i cant have, why would i
want? HAHA...but i hv someone tat i
wanna hv anyway...sadlY she Is froM
another InstitutioN. :((

12) Have you fallen in love?
- err...I thInk so? lol.

13) Do you believe in celebrating
anniversaries?
- Nah, It's a waste of my lifE with my
partner. haha.

14) Do you believe that you can change
for someone?
- Yes. :D

15.) Is it a good day?
- Oh yea! PlayeD with photoShop!!


16) Have you ever broken a heart
before?
- HAHA..nah!

17) Does your ex still have feelings
for you?
- LOL..this is not a qn for me to
answer. :P

18) Do you still have feelings for
them?
- Refer to 17. :D

Sacrifice...

TODAY:
I started off with today and then from Fri to Mon. :D
Today, felt lazy to go sch...but again..kept thinking of 'CLASS HEAVEN' and the confirmation email to go for photoshop workshop made me go to sch. It was boring. I was being so unlike the self when I was in secondary school...that is CRAPPING. :D
Shufang gave everyone 2 TOO little dolls. :D haha...I like the black voodoos!!~~ so I exchange with some of my classmates to vOodOoo DoOlLl! :D I had one that looks like a ninja and the other that look like a dead spirit. :D it was COOL lor..but i dunno why my friend say it's scary. haha.



17/8 - Friday

Went to sch, and to wushu. Played soccer again. High kick and landed on my back. It was ouch. lol. As usual, I am so careless about my physical conditions when playing sports. Bled my elbow and fell many times. I was damn physically tired after that. During the training itself, I can't do much. Going home, had a bad ache. haha. Normal la. Forgot many stuffs. Lol. Watch my performance vid. It sucks like fuk. It's a wake up pill for me. I can't let my pain hold me back. Time to fight.

Saturday
Aching...but went to work at 10am. lol. It was torturing for me. Lots of customer. The whole day was like not relax. Furthermore, there were many new faces...so it was difficult for me to cope. I dunno how to describe la...but it makes me feel so irritated by their performance, but what to say...I am in no position to say anything and I dont even think they're willing to learn. They even ignore what i told them. =.="
That was just at the morning shift. I am working full shift.
So the night shift, customers are as usual at its peak but I am lucky to have more experienced colleague to be working with me. It makes the job much easier...and it's a fair match between the customers and the staffs. :D

Sunday
Working in the morning. Good thing that there weren't many customers in the morning. Or else I dont think I hv energy to go for Ninja-do. :D
Nevertheless, it was tiring la. :D
Ninja-do, I got my short stick and my belt. :D Wahh..the pattern was quite ok la. Easier than dagger. The kicks also alright la...fair enough, not so hard not so easy. :D
After that, we had some cakes cos' it was Genta/Kenta's birthday. lol. Dunno how to really pronounce his name. Happy BdaY! :D They want be to bash him...but I was too soft-hearted laaaa.. LOL.
Then Joel(ex-ninja) also came. WahHh...miss him! haha..especially his laughter..veri funny!! HAHA.
I hope he can join back one day.. *sigh*
Anyway, go home...exhausted. The thought of tomorrow having to go to school made me feel lazy. Have not been exercise for days. lol.

Monday
Morning...was DAMN lazy...to go sch. Don't feel like coming. But i got wushu, and vb is my fav module. And the thought of getting some cakes from faci motivates me to come. HAHA. SO yea, i came and had some fun. The problem was easy la. :D
Then, went for wushu. Played soccer again! :D HAHA..
i think that I am better than usual. I was thinking more about to succeed rather than the injuries during the process. It was 2 seniors' birthday...and had cake after the training! :D

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That's all folks!!

Class HEAVEN

Last few days with different facilitators. We had different types of 'farewell gifts' from them! :D
Yesterday was a fruttt cake. It was delicious! :D HAHAHA...yummy!! So long never eat cakes!!! :DDDD
TOday was a CHEESECAKE from my science faci. LOL. I think he can start a business liao. His cheesecake was super DELICIOUS ShiOk!! Seriously, I never tried such a delicious cheesecake before!! I am lucky to be his Student. HAHAHAHA.
Then came my enterprise faci. WAHH. Brownie! :D LOL. I've always wanted to try brownie! Even in pizza hut! But hardly got it..and not that nice either. Then this enterprise teacher bought a giant brownie for all of us! :D SoOoOOOOooooooo YUM YUM!!
:D
I wonder what's next. HAHAA. I can describe how happy I was to be eating cakes. ...geeee..

TOday wushu, walao...tiring sia. Then learn weapon. I hv chosen staff. HAHA. And then always want to hit the floor, I hit my toes. LOL. HAHAHA....pain pain pain. Played soccer, and I was like jumping kick....and fell on the ground again. Body pain sia..lol. And walao...forgot my Long-fist pattern. =.="...ChangQuan.

So anyway, I am thinking of buying staff so can practice at home. :D I need to be stronger...I am not letting small bruises to stop me. I saw my performance video. lol. I am not going to look weak or hurt anymore unless it's really unbearable.lol.

I feel so lazy

Aiya...blog blog...Today I was having dilemma whether to skip class. Intentionally, I want to...and do not want to come to sch. On the other hand, I had told a friend that if she needs help in VB, just ring me. So that means I hv to be in sch. So i went la. Dunno whether to skip class and stay in the library or just go to class.
On the way to sch, saw some of my classmates. Aiya...I was spotted liao. lol. Must as well dont skip class. I do not hv a firm decision of skipping class. That was why when I saw my classmates I decided to go to class.

lol. Lazy me. Tml is communication. I am always looking forward to make video clips...but dunno tml see how la. lol. I was just nonsensing in class just now. So sian. Flu a bit.

VB was more fun la. lol. Yesterday I did VB instead of focusing in class. I even did VB after lesson in library. :D
Aiya...sianz. Work courses were cancelled and postponed to another date. Aiya...so mafan. I wanna go to photoshop workshop on 24th. :D
Finally, something tat is my course-related workshop hv been established. Later oso got 3D animating. WAHH!! I dun wanna miss them! :D

Aiya..forgot to do RJ..must do now. Bye!
Sayonaro!

Performance

lol. The performance was alright. I caught up at the last one. I kicked immediately after i turned and place my leg back to position. lol. paiseh. wadever la eh. :D

Anyway, I think I am getting to know more about J-pop. :D

Gackt - sexy voice and another cool guy that can impressed me besides that MJ.

Chatmonchy - A cute girl with a cute voice.

Here's Gackt



Here chatmonchy! :3


So meow meow! :D haha...

Also after my performance, I saw an angmoh band. Wahhh...I wanna sing also. lol. Not forgetting, martial art is not my only interest...I want to sing too! Animate! Draw! Dance! :D There...all 5! :D

Sayonara! wanna listen to chatmonchy cute voice. LOL.

Ahhhh...suffocating..

I keep smelling and tasting blood. I dunno whether it's my nose that is bleeding or my mouth. Or even worse...internal bleeding. Externally, I bled my elbow and toes.

Come to those later. Let's start with my morning. As usual, i felt so lazy to move or go to school. At the same time, I had difficulties falling back to sleep. So I decided to just get started with my day.

Went to school...science module. I was really talking nonsense but most of my teammates mistakenly thought that I know a lot. LOL. It's about physics. And was told that the problem is difficult. Hahaha. Who cares.

During our second break, we took picture...after lesson oso took class picture. LOL..

Wushu, I am becoming more ambitious to do cartwheel and some jumping kicks. Wait, before that, we had a soccer game. LOL. I'm too lazy to run after the ball, so I waited near the opponent's goal post to kick when ball comes. HAHAHA. Scored lousily...and scored only once. HAHAHa. I was as usual, playing with no rules and my own way. I like doing sweep kicks. AHAHA. Felt twice or more while trying to get the ball from opponent. haha..even in my fall, I refused to lose...and as usual, keep trying to steal the ball even though I was lying down. This is CRAZY. lol. My coach(female) was too scared to kick during i was in that position so I took advantage lor. HAHA.

Ok..next, the fun time was over...with injuries I do not realised. ...maybe my elbow and thigh.

Then the trainings, my jumping kick so like so fun and kinda cool. LOL. It was a failure but a cool one because I successfully landed. I think I can do it again. lol. I think that was when my toes bleed. Doing cartwheel, trying without hands, I just landed on my back like a slam. LOL. Hurt la...but not physical damage.

Lastly, rehearsing for Sunday's performance at Marsling. :D I caught up all the way until the last one. :D AHaha


lol..spot my mistakes. HAHa.


This one was taken in action...so it's blur blur...I was dead after that. (jk)
Lastly,
SAYONARA!

Day at its baby

I woke up at 6.46am today. But too lazy to start my day and went to close my eyes.
When I open my eyes again, it's already 7am. And lazily, I just lie down there thinking of how to win her heart. lol. Why think about that first thing in the morning? LOL. I just can't stop thinking about her. I mean I can stop thinking about her outer beauty because there're many familiar faces in sch...but I ain't sure whether I can find another person with such inner beauty as her.

7.15am - bath. Man, I would consider that as late. I am full of imaginations. My mind keep on playing scenes of fights and rescues, that is how my mind works almost every morning. My injured knee hurts every morning because it is not warmed up yet. So I had hard time moving. 8am left home. HAHA...see how imaginative I can be? lol.

okok...in school. So boring. I feel like i'm not needed in the group anyway. In fact, these few days, I don't know why I am feeling this way. I think I found my answer.

ANNOUNCEMENT: HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
:D

Sunday, I am going to perform at Marsling CC. Easy to spot me...the only malay in wushu. :P

Selected Performer

Sunday,

Work busy...tiring. My injuries contributed to the exhaustion and make it worse. I dont care la. I persevered till the end of the day, that is after Ninja do.

Ninja-do, go there, slept b4 lesson started. lol. One of them commented that I come to sleep only. lol. Then had the sengkang guy taking the test late. I was reluctant to spar cos' tired n injured but deep in my heart, I wanna spar. lol. Julia was the one who was like encouraging me to spar. So i volunteered.

Again, I didn't fight...just defense but it was getting so bored that I decided to get myself some momentum movements i learned from wushu. Seriously, I am bad at the momentum thingy. LOL. I attacked several times and blocked his kicked and yoyatsu. I was not in the heat to attack violently. However, after the sparring, he claimed that I kicked his right rib. Opps...sorry.

I hurt my toes in one of the warming down. HAHA.


MONDAY

Lessons are boring as usual.
Wushu was fun. It was not as tiring as usual. Funny. I guess it was because the seniors were the ones who conduct the warming up session. :D But it was good. I am able to kick better. But my jumps and jump kicks are jialat. LOL. It's so embarassing la.

Then came the audition for performance on Sunday at Marsling CC. 9 were chosen. Oh well..I was one of the selected performers. :D Happy and fun. WeEeee...I like to perform. I am always a performer.

The PAIN is back

I feel frustrated with my injuries. My thigh aches again. My knee still in pain. My toe also the same.

Hais..

I need to organise my thoughts.

What I want to do:
1) Find better paid job
2) Make new blog where I write stories based on imaginations
3) Save money for router $200 (still saving)
4) Tidy up my cabinet
5) Organise my school stuffs
6) Do somersaults (with help of wushu)
7) Increase agility for martial art(ninja)
8) Be a good person and stronger
9) Work out

Aim:
1) Router
2) Digital camera (for myself)
3) More clothes
4) Save $300 (I owe my savings)
5) Buy desktop (pending)

Today was programming. VB that is. It got something to do with minesweeper which I am not so familiar with. Only saw people play but I do not know how to play. lol. The process of making this minesweeper game is so confusing yet it is fun. It's a headache but making the program and finding the solution itself was like a game. It is like a jig-saw puzzle, that is why I find programming fun.

Received a call from don't know who, say I enlisted for job or stuffs like dat. Aiya...receive so many familiar calls. Don't know to believe or not. I would be happy to work..but I am afraid of being pranked cos I really dont have time for such nonsense.

I find myself trapped in a world of emotions and fantasy. How I wish there are cool technology where I can be in a virtual world with bad guys...and I keep killing them. I can practice my martial arts there and do not have to worry of hurting anyone. A virtual world where there's people like you and me. Where I can actually make a relationship with the people. But it is going to be hurtful when I know that they're just virtual. =.="

So anyway, I just want to end my post for now.

The solitude

I have just eliminated some of my 'memories'. I have thrown some of the rubbish in my cabinet where I stored my secondary school stuffs. The worksheets all remind me of loneliness. Something triggers in my mind when I look at them - loneliness, useless, struggling for my crush, works, hatred, stressed, etc. Basically, most of it are negative. It brings back memories. Then read my essay about an article. I think I was very creative but the way I expressed it was not clear. My essay was in fact, quite interesting...it kept me reading till the end. It made me remember that I actually used to like writing stories based on my imaginations.

Anyway, today I bought strait times and read the recruitment page. I really want to get a better paid job. To be more specific, I NEED to! I feel like jogging a bit and train my martial arts now. But I don't know where can I do it. Hmm...this makes me feel WASTED. I think I have to make myself feel that I need to rest my body. My legs are really tired anyway.

Sunday, Ninja test. My yoyatsu let me down. My right leg could not lift high..but I force it and fell. But then, I still think that I will be promoted anyway. After that, went to eat dinner at KFC with the other ninjas. I used my staff coupon :D. Lol.

Monday, legs got worse. Tired...in wushu, I was surprisingly quiet and can't remember the patterns. I realised that I really need to rest.

Tuesday, I was supposed to go for the PM visit thing representing CCG(chinese cultural group) as I am a member of the wushu IG. but I did not turn up. Too tired.

Yet today, I feel like training. lol. Must rest. This friday, no wushu...monday oso no wushu. :D WOOO....Hope my legs are ready for the next training which will be on next Friday.