I just wanna see where am I now..

Singing has always been something that I have long to achieve. To be more correct, i wanna learn the correct way to sing. I have tried to maximise my interest in that field but failed. Working part-time, I thought I would be able to get myself to take up vocal course, but it is insufficient. When I got into RP, I was so excited about joining replug or rhaspody. I tried rhaspody...but failed audition.

It's not something to be sad of, but rather something to be improved on. It could be I am not born with the 'sing' voice. But I am still not satisfied. I think I should give another try next year. Just to encourage myself, I may not make it but at least I have the courage.

This courage. I was told by my wushu intructor that I am the next person to succeed in doing the cartwheel without hand because of my courage. Just yesterday, he told me to jump. Sometimes I wonder why am I doing. I mean, if i were to see another person who do the same thing as me, I would say they're crazy. But when I am doing that thing...I just feel great. What I did was trying to do the cartwheel...and fell, injuring myself. It seems that I did not change. I don't even know whether what I was doing was right or wrong...that is being daring.

Besides that, I do have this interest of drawing manga. Serious talking, I think that the unofficial IG I am in now would die off. I don't think the chairman can ensure me of being a manga artist.

In a way, I am proud of myself for living with some of my dreams...one of which is knowing martial arts. And to be more of myself, I did not go for strong martial arts or a martial art of my own race, Silat. I am only learning the ones that symbolise me.

What I learn from this interest field is that, no one is better than anyone. It is just seen that way because everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses. So if I still fail the audition next year, it doesn't matter...I have other strengths.