Hi blog, I am just trying to organised my thoughts.
Firstly, I want to list down what I want to do. I have already type this list in Word and saved them. lol.

Secondly, it is how I am going to do it.
I need a lot of discipline. I hate to be so egoist. It's not that I have not turn to be one before, in fact, that is the reason I hate it. I would like to relax and stay calm rather than trying to only pursuing my interest so dead seriously. I find being egoist is kind of selfish. In fact, if u tell me the 'motivation words' i would say they are only cliches' which are said without being understood. What is this my stand? Well...there are some sayings that I have been spreading like as if i know and it does seems logical, but it is when I experience and see why is it logical then I truly understand what those cliches means. How does this relates to egoist? Some of them use these 'motivational phrases' to motivate themselves, teach others and just barely tell themselves. What they don't realise is that they do not FULLY understand them. It's like a theory being use without proving yourself it is true. WOah...am i an anti-realist? lol.

So how am I goin to do it? Well...being an egoist is one of the ways that i know. The other is to have friend to motivate me to pursue my interest and each others' interest. :)

Well..Ninja-do on Sunday. Sengkang people came over to 'guard' us from troublemakers who came to disturb the place last week after lesson. I didnt stay long enough so i dunno what happen. I have some phobia doin yeoyatsu because I fell several times while trying to exert force in the kick. Sparred with Joel. lol. I told him, "I do not like to hurt others, nor do I like to be hurt". He says, "Eh same!"
lol. That was before the spar. Then during sparring, i do not really know what to do, then got one part i use yeoyatsu, and decrease force when turning. He blocked my kick and lost his balance and fell. lol. He said he rather block and fall than being kicked. haha. Then taijutsu was like..."Eh Joel, let's finish this quick..u push me"
Lol...then it was like so sian la..he didnt use much force, so I push him...it's a draw I guess. lol.

Then today, watch my 'old stuffs', that is my animations, my fun dance, speeches and some documents. :P I guess that was why everyone call me lame last time. Now I know why. Lol...how embarassing. But seriously, I still think i did some good job there.