The solitude

I have just eliminated some of my 'memories'. I have thrown some of the rubbish in my cabinet where I stored my secondary school stuffs. The worksheets all remind me of loneliness. Something triggers in my mind when I look at them - loneliness, useless, struggling for my crush, works, hatred, stressed, etc. Basically, most of it are negative. It brings back memories. Then read my essay about an article. I think I was very creative but the way I expressed it was not clear. My essay was in fact, quite interesting...it kept me reading till the end. It made me remember that I actually used to like writing stories based on my imaginations.

Anyway, today I bought strait times and read the recruitment page. I really want to get a better paid job. To be more specific, I NEED to! I feel like jogging a bit and train my martial arts now. But I don't know where can I do it. Hmm...this makes me feel WASTED. I think I have to make myself feel that I need to rest my body. My legs are really tired anyway.

Sunday, Ninja test. My yoyatsu let me down. My right leg could not lift high..but I force it and fell. But then, I still think that I will be promoted anyway. After that, went to eat dinner at KFC with the other ninjas. I used my staff coupon :D. Lol.

Monday, legs got worse. Tired...in wushu, I was surprisingly quiet and can't remember the patterns. I realised that I really need to rest.

Tuesday, I was supposed to go for the PM visit thing representing CCG(chinese cultural group) as I am a member of the wushu IG. but I did not turn up. Too tired.

Yet today, I feel like training. lol. Must rest. This friday, no wushu...monday oso no wushu. :D WOOO....Hope my legs are ready for the next training which will be on next Friday.