What wrong have I done?

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Sometimes I wonder what wrong have I done. What that had happened to me in the past has come back again. I don't know...I really don't. It is just fate?

So many things are happening.

Nothing is worse that being alone. I just want to have cats, just like I used to have... stray cats. Only animals or to be more specific, cats, can understand me. Sometimes I wonder, is there any relations between me and cats.

Mother told me about cat fightings during the first few months I was born. There were cats fighting outside the house and I was crying. But when she look outside, there wasn't any cat.

I wish I can have a big cat... maybe tiger? Ok fine, enough of my cat stories. I just want to be with a clique. Where's my flock of birds? After 19 years of living, I am still alone? Where did I go wrong? I'm not angry, or sad, just stress. I am still capable of helping others and doing my stuffs even with this stress. It won't affect my work, but it will affect my smile, the way I talk and learn. I know myself well...