Still try to push me.

Some people are telling me to suffer now and enjoy later. Some feel that I need to push myself.

Okkaaayyy....

I hate it. I hate it when people are telling me to stop delaying or procrastinate. True, I am a bad person. Difficult to cooperate with. My very own cousin don't even want to be nice to me. I would say that she's fussy. I'm sorry, I can't be as good as her, I am not her, I am not as smart and all. I'm sorry. I am not perfect, I'm sorry.

I was kinda emotionally hurt. I know what I need. I sat beside a spiderweb-like playground alone last night and tried to relax myself.

Then I actually climbed up the spiderweb-like playground just now. I need to climb to relieve it. It doesn't matter if my ankle is injured. I was not sure if it's gonna hurt even more, but heck. I need to climb it. That spiderweb thing is kinda small, so I can do it.

After the climb, I felt better. I actually wanted to do cartwheel on air there but there's people looking. So I didn't. I think that place will be a good place to relieve stress.