Emo Mood

It's been such a long time....again

I am so frustrated. My grades are sucky.
Okla...the truth is that...I want to be free! I want to do my own stuffs. I want to be able to do my exercises. I want to hang out. I want to play games. I want to chat with friends, i want to spend more time with friends, I want to have a care free life, i want to stop worrying...

I am being held back by many stuffs... which if i were to mention, my readers will take it lightly because my friends are taking it lightly. It's like something that others don't understand, so you have to find a way out yourself. I am stress. I am tired. I am frustrated.

I have lost the heat. The heat to do martial arts. I am concentrating on my happiness now...in fact just happiness in general. Sometimes martial artists are just too proud of themselves and they don't respect other people(their downline)...resulting in NO HAPPINESS. I am not anti-martial art. I do like martial arts in fact. I just want to let some people know that happiness is more important than ego. If anyone find this offensive, I am sorry. I don't mean to offend anyone. It's MY BLOG. If you have not been invited, why are you here to flame me? My blog is the place I speak out my mind. That is the rule of my blog, if you don't like it...just go away. If you are not up to that, you can still tag me...nicely. I will compromise.

I am too stress and tired now. I am not sure if my mind is thinking rationally. Whatever I am blogging now could be just another entry which I might find useless and meaningless and eventually, I might be deleting it.