Sad

these few days...
I m experiencing stress....I feel sad. I dunno why, but just sad.
I am bad at drawing...but I wanna draw.

Today, my manager asked me...why I wanna quit. I feel a bit annoyed. Who the hell reveal that fact? I say, I want more experience. I olady told him I wanna go do the kitchen...he says not yet. However, the new service staffs know..most of them. I, being one of the senior, dunno. =.="

Of course that's not all the reason why I wanna quit. Other factors include the typical conflict among the colleagues. Above all these, I still hv not given any notice of quitting. And oh, I sense some anger from my manager when I kept quiet during he ask me the qn. He was like, "I am asking you, why you wanna quit?". Whatever la.

The morning was not busy but rather stressful. I was alone for just 30 mins and there goes the takeaways n dine-in customers. It was damn irritating lor. Takeaway customer, placing order...then one come to dine-in...then waited at the entrance. Then nvm la...then another custome come....just go in. So the waiting customer oso follow and take their seats their own...stupidly..as they did not take the menu with them. Guess what? After the takeaway customer, another dine in customer at the entrance, so I serve them. The other 2 customers who went in by themselves ask for the menu. =.="...okok. I know. it's normal.

Then afternoon, more stress...being a cashier, I hv to deal with take-away customers, cashiing outs, drinks, ice-cream...and sometimes seating customers. So there's one time that i was doin an ice-cream. Then this unpatient customer call from behind, "HELLO!? Can you bring us to our seat? Somebody?" =.=""
Irritating...for goodness sake, wait for a while...ice-cream can melt. I oso feel irritated with my colleague who went to the kitchen. So i hv to serve this nonsense.
tat's not everything...I was told to open a cake, and light it up...(i was like...hais..okkk)....ANNDD sing birthday song. I was like wth. I m willing to do tat but I feel as tho it's too much. I m already irritated when she call me for a seat, then a cake, lit up, and finally sing. I really no mood to sing lor. How to sing when I am irritated?

No choice...I am doin report n counting cash when she call me for the cake....or not another disturbance. =.="
Nevertheless, I still did a good job..well, at least I rate myself like dat. Cos' I did some introduction to the bday guy and then even sang for him...pIanGz!!=.="
And it was out of irritation.
Whatever.

Ninja-do. I am stress...I hv 2 injured knees. I forgotten lots of move. I am sad la actually. It's mainly due to my knee injuries. I feel so weak...sad. Just emo can?

Then thinking of wushu tml. Will i b able to do my best.

Argh...now it's 1:08am...I am thinking abt sch tml. Panda eyes? FCUKiNG iiRritating!! tired? sleepy?! ARghhH! I feel so stress...I feel like hurting myself...like jump somersault and landed on my back, breaking tables with high rising kick..etc

One of my knees is hurting now even as I was lying down typing this shiting entry. I just feel sad.